This Life That Was Given Me.

11:30am

Hin go soon come. Make i go baff, set my face. I hope say dis pancake go cover all dis marks dis time. 

*sigh* I taya. That last customa of yestahday, that man wicked so. I never see that kain before. And hin no wan pay extra oh after all d things hin wan make i do. Chai! Shey i go fit work today as my body hot so?

No 1 Side Street, Lonely Avenue.

No. I will not cry. I will not cry.

Open dammit! Calm down girl. Deep breath. Steady. Now slowly, pick out your key from the bunch and slide it into the keyhole. Like you do every night. Now go to the fridge, take out a beer. Okay two. Go to your room. Don't stop, don't think, just get into bed, drink your beer and wait for sleep to take you. Be merciful God. Let the sleep come early tonight. Please.

I need to pee. No i need to get back to sleep. If i pee, the sleep may not come back. Ignore it. Close your eyes, take your mind off your bowels and focus on sleep...

Damn, i need to pee.
I sigh heavily as i trudge wearily to my bathroom because i know that the sleep will not come back.


I did not ask for him to love me.

*SIGH*

06:05pm

"Babe? Hey babe." Ahh. His Voice. Still has that calming effect even after three years of being together (Two years dating, one year married).
"I'm okay, you?" Lord knows i'd kill for a hug right now.
"Seriously babe, I'm okay. Just had a pretty long rough day."
"Yeah of course, i'll tell you all about it when i get back but i'm not sure when that'll be." Eyes closed, i imagine him giving me a deep massage while i tell him how my boss has somehow gotten it into her head that I'm some kind of 21st century machine.
"I know babe, i know but there's this meeting with those clients from China. You know they never stop working. I'll be back as soon as i can."
*huge smile* *warm feeling coursing through my body* "Ahhh babe...how am i supposed to concentrate now....Alright, can't wait to get home. See you in a bit."
"Love you right back my love."  Now I really can't wait to get home. But first i have to get through this meeting. *sigh, picking up my ipad* I better get my Chun li on.

OLN

So I was going through my previous posts and I realised that the last three have been pretty serious. Like seriously, why so serious?? I'm usually not a serious person like that so those posts have me worried. Very worried. Like does it mean I am now an adult? Older and wiser and things? Does it mean my life is now serious? What does it mean??
Anyway, I've decided to do a post that is not so serious. Only that I'm not sure exactly how that's supposed to go. So here's my first attempt. OLN (On a lighter Note): Take One.

The Noses and Horses.

22nd August 2006.
5.00pm
…TICK...TICK…TICK
Green. Please God let it be green. Dear God…Tick, tick, tick…
Blue.
Shit.